On a not-so-depressing-but-ties-into-my-title note, I just watched Titanic. Great movie.
Moving on. I feel like taking a step back from living and take a break. I’m not feeling suicidal mind you. I just want to hit pause and rest. Life is moving so quickly and I’m not appreciating any second of it. The moments of joy and happiness fade amidst all the pain and stress.
SO TODAY WAS PRETTY SHITTY BECAUSE RAIN WAS TOTALLY OUT TO GET ME THIS TIME.
MY FRIEND TOLD ME TO TAKE THE TRANSIT TO GET TO STEPS ACADEMY SO I WON’T HAVE TO WALK IN THE RAIN [WOE IS ME THE DUMBASS WHO FORGOT A HOODED JACKET AND UMBRELLA]. SHE TOLD ME TO GO TO THE STUDENT PARKING LOT AT THE BASKETBALL COURTS AND TO RUN THERE BECAUSE THE BUS FILLS UP FAST. SO I RAN LIKE THE FUCKING WIND.
THERE’S A HUGE DIP ON THE WAY AND BEING MORE OF A DUMBASS, I STUMBLED THROUGH IT AND MY WHOLE FOOT WAS ENGULFED IN WATER. I REACHED THE PARKING LOT BUT OBVIOUSLY THE BUS WASN’T THERE SO I RAN AROUND AND FINALLY CAUGHT A GLIMPSE OF IT ON DUARTE.
THERE WAS A LINE TO GET IN AND THE BUS WAS JAMMED PACK. 5 OF US WERE TURNED DOWN AND I STARED WITH DISMAY AT THE LUCKY STUDENTS ON THE BUS, RAIN STILL PELTED DOWN ON ME. GUESS WHO STARED BACK?
HENRY FUCKING ZHANG.
I SAW HIS CROOKED SMILE AND COULD ALMOST HEAR HIS HIDEOUS LAUGH AS HE WAVED HIS WRETCHED HAND GOOD-BYE.
The whole “alright/right” motif has been popping into my head lately. For a good reason, too.
Mostly the lines “maybe then I would’ve turned out right” [from a different song] and “it’s alright” from this song seem to be embedded in my brain. It’s comforting to know that everything is going to turn out right, but it’s painful to go through everything that’s wrong.