oh i forgot to blog about a dream i had...within a dream
I literally had a dream within a dream, but that’s as far as I got. This happened a few nights ago so the details are a little fuzzy. I’ll just call the first, more superficial dream layer, level 1. And the deeper dream layer, level 2.
I don’t remember presently what level 1 started as, but I fell asleep during level 1 and went into level 2. Both levels were pretty realistic I guess, unlike my usual weird dreams where I’m a different person. I was myself and all I remember from the first time I entered level 2 was that I lost something, and had to find it by going back.
So I woke up from level 2 and was back in level 1 feeling kinda empty. Something or someone was telling me to go back to level 2 and find my counterpart to make myself complete again.
Some other things happened in the level 1 dream, but eventually I fell asleep and got back to level 2. In level 2 this time, I searched everywhere for this “counterpart” and found this girl. She was way taller than me [maybe 5’8”?] and caucasian and I swear I’ve never seen her in my life. I don’t know how she was my counterpart because she was awful company [maybe I’m awful company haha].
I explained to her my situation: I had to find her and somehow she’ll be able to get me out of the dream [I felt like that meant literally making me get out of dreaming, not just level 2]. We were at some pizza parlor at this point and she was just nodding her head like, “Uh huh,” but not really paying attention to me. She ordered some crazy pizza that I had to pay for and was just really rude [I’m pretty sure I had to get her some plates and napkins, too…].
Sometime after she started eating I blanked out and woke up.
Teleportation. Nightcrawler the shit out of everything.
Fixing past mistakes might seem enticing, but when you catch up to where you are now you’ll be left without that crutch and be as ignorant as you are today. Plus if you fix one mistake that may totally change the space-time continuum for all other decisions and you’ll lose all the answers because they’re irrelevant and you’ll have to relive dreaded stages of your life such as MIDDLE SCHOOL.
I went to China and ended up at some temple/palace [idk what I know nothing about China besides their government] where some crazy synchronized marching tournament was going on. All of a sudden it felt like a earthquake was happening, but it turned out that the temple/palace was on some tracks and someone was pushing it towards the ocean.
Fortunately the ocean was ridiculously far and we were moving ridiculously slow, but everyone in the temple/palace was still hysterical and had the “I’M GOING TO DIE!!” mindset. Myself included.
What felt like a few hours and many towns later, I got fed up. I stood up from where I was sitting and shouted, “FUCK THIS SHIT I DON’T WANT TO DIE!” and jumped off of the moving building. It was really easy. I guess the main reason why people didn’t do that sooner was because whoever was pushing the temple/palace might kill whoever escaped [seems logical considering that that person is MOVING A WHOLE FUCKING TEMPLE/PALACE].
Turned out that entity was Loki from Thor and I was just like, “FUUUUU-” and he was going to kill me but then Thor came and beat his ass and I was saved <3.
I ended up at the Avengers headquarters-thing that was in the movie trailer. Excited I turned to Thor and exclaimed, “YOU KNOW CAPTAIN AMERICA, HUH?” I guess that was the worst question to bring up because Thor began to look all sad like he was about to cry as if Captain America was dead or frozen or in a coma or something.
i think chemistry hates me just as much as i hate it
I could insert a witty pun here about the other use of the word chemistry but I’ll save that for another day.
Slap in the face I got a C on my midterm. Seems like a crushing blow to my asian-self, but more so to my personal self. This is almost like a flashback to freshman-sophomore summer when I totally fucked up my GPA by getting a dumb B in chemistry, knowing full well I could’ve aced the class had I not dicked around and played video games.
Hopefully I can just brush this off and learn from my mistake yet AGAIN that I need to really focus myself with this subject, especially because I hate it so much.